Unbelief

 

For several days now, I seem to be stuck on the story about the Possessed Boy in Mark’s Gospel (Mark 9: 14 – 29).  Each time I open my Bible to read on, I am drawn to rereading this story, and like always, with each read I gain new wisdom and insights.

The father asks, “If out of the kindness of your heart you can do anything to help us, please do!”

Jesus replies, “If you can?…….”

The father says, “I do believe!  Help my lack of trust!”

How many times have I spoke about, taught about, discussed and thought about my faith.  Of course I have faith!  At the end of the day, I know that I am loved and that God has a wonderful plan for me.

But, it is only with true humility that I can pray the words, ‘I do believe, help me overcome my unbelief,’ because I have such a long way to go.

I still doubt.

I still hold on to anger.

I still question.

I still want it ‘my way.’

I still desire control.

And so, I pray…..’If you can….’ and Jesus replies, “If I can????”

And I humbly ask for a greater faith…..after all, I have mountains yet to move!