It’s been just over a year since I walked away from my work. Even though I wasn’t quite ready to leave, I felt I didn’t have a choice. Without getting into too much detail, I had to support my staff and myself. At the end of the day, I have to be true to who I am, and I have to be at peace with myself and my God. And so I left…….
This past year has been difficult and filled with so many mixed emotions. I was angry at the lack of support from someone whom I had worked with and supported for nine years. There are always two sides to every story, I know that, but there was an injustice done and I struggle with that.
And so, I sit with angst because I am judging, and I hate to point fingers. How do I find peace with these feelings inside of me?
I have prayed, I have prayed for all those involved, I continue to pray, and through that prayer I have found my peace. As I reflect on the person (I judged), I realize that we are two very different people. If I had met this person in my life, I would not choose to be friends with him. I’m not judging, I’m simply saying that we are not similar in the ways we think and act, and that’s OK!
I had this person in my life because we worked together, we no longer do, and now I have walked away. This simple revelation (not so simple for me, took me a year – ugh!), brings peace because I respect this person, it’s just not someone I want in my life.
It’s not that we should always try to surround ourselves with people who are like ourselves, but on the other hand, if someone causes you to lose your inner peace or causes you to judge, then perhaps it’s time to walk away. That’s what I did.
I wish him well, I truly do, and again, that is for my inner work. But, during this past year I have come to know myself a little better and am no longer willing to continue friendships that should end.
It’s OK to walk away…..it really is!