So, I decide to start posting again because I had a really rough year and I wanted to share with you how I dealt with the pain of betrayal and how I grew from it all. Well, maybe I have, but there is much that still needs healing.
Yesterday a friend called and began taking about what happened, and before you knew it, I began my downward spiral. Those old feelings of hurt and sadness came gushing back and before I knew it, I was angry…..yet again! I took some time to vent, wallowed a while and then tried to distract myself.
I woke up this morning and began to think again. This is NOT who I want to be. I do not want to be angry because that baggage weighs me down. When Jesus said to pray for those who persecute us, He meant that for OUR healing. I want to be free of all of this. I want to let it go, but I realize that it’s a process….and it takes time.
Yesterday I veered off the track of forgiveness, healing and freedom. Today I get back on….
Who knows, maybe these setbacks are all part of the journey, there to keep us humble. I CAN do this….but not alone. Holy Spirit, fill my heart!