Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
1 Peter 4:7
Intercessory prayer has always been a mystery to me. Oh, I believe in it….I always ask for other’s prayers and often offer to pray for them as well. I know that it is important. I know that it makes a difference. I can’t really explain how, but I suppose that it may not really matter if I understand it or not. As a Christian, we must find peace in Mystery.
So, someone close to me is hurting and in pain. I present her to God, I pray for her and then, according to St. Peter, I’m supposed to let it go? Much easier said then done! Here is where my little brain goes: If I let it go, will God think that I don’t care anymore about it? Don’t I have to keep telling God how worried I am? I would feel guilty if I don’t obsess about it….
It’s like a tug of war with God. I pray and surrender – I’m filled with worry – I lift her to God – I’m anxious about the situation. Maybe that’s the best that I can do. I’m only human after all. When people I care about are hurting, I hurt too.
For today, my prayer is that I can ease up just a little on my grip – not quite ready to let go of the rope and end this game of tug or war, but perhaps, just for today, I can be pulled a bit towards God’s side.