I love this from C.S.Lewis:
We’re not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us;
we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.
Oh, I can really relate to that one. This is what I want: to be close to God (more than close, in an intimate relationship with my Abba), to do his will (not sure what that is, but Jesus spoke of it and so I want it), and to be happy (more than joy-filled, which I believe you can be even in the midst of pain), I want to be happy and I want all of those who I love to be happy too. There, I’ve said it out loud. That is what I want, to be a follower and to have a life free of pain, stuggles, sadness, etc. Can I have that? No.
If I am truly a follower than my path is the ‘Way of the Cross’ and every ‘ending’ will not be a happy one in this world. There is pain in a fallen world. So back to C.S. Lewis….is my ‘yes’
an ‘ok until it gets too difficult,’
a ‘not yet,’
or a ‘YES!’
It’s like getting into the ocean…..do you just jump right in or do you go slowly and when the cold water hits a sensitive spot, turn around? C.S. Lewis – a spiritual giant – and one who is not afraid to be REAL.