I was thinking……I trust God. I know that whatever happens in my life, even though it might be painful, I do believe that in the long run it is for my good and that I can grow closer to God through it. At least that is what my head tells me. But, I have to admit, that it frightenes me a little. I don’t like pain and sorrow. I don’t want to hurt. I want my close relationship to God, but I want to be happy, I want everyone to get along, I want heaven on earth. And then I thought, I’m not really giving my 100%, am I? If I really do believe that God loves me, then I have to surrender it all and trust. Wow, that hit me like a ton of bricks this morning. That will have to be a prayer for me because I know that I can’t do that without His help. To completely surrender, 100%. I’m not sure I’m there yet, but I will pray, and when (if) I can eventually get there, then that is when I will really experience God’s love for me. Until then, I will continue to try to control my world …..ugh!
I can really relate to this post! Thank you for being transparent and sharing your heart with us!
Thanks Alisa, that means a lot because I really hesitated pushing that ‘publish that post’ botton on this one.
I can relate to this one as well. It’s difficult to place 100% trust in God, yet in my mind I believe that it’s more important than being comfortable all the time. And then you receive an inner peace… 🙂
Well there’s definitely 100% contemplation going on here. I think that’s part of our journey, contemplating, considering, thinking about it all as we go.
Surrender… now that’s a tough one. It’s easy to say but oh so difficult to totally surrender 100%.
Enjoy your weekend
Total trust and surrender – it should come as a relief for us who believe in Jesus shouldn’t it – that an Omnipotent, Omniscient, loving Someone is in charge? And He’s on OUR side! But I get scared of what it entails and what might be asked of me. Thanks for sharing this.
(By the way, I’m the PFO follower interested in your EDJE program.)